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♥ Tuesday, May 29, 2007

well, ii br0ke up wif him. This ish wad ii strugle thru so much of serious thinkin & finally told him tat ii wanted a break wif him. The pr0blem lies wif me. My feelins fer him fades away gradually & ii think tat ii cant bbe wif him when ii told him ii love him bud my heart ish not wif him. I think its not fair fer him when he treats me so damn gd, caring & concern over me. its not tat ii d0n wanan bbe wif him longer, its jus tat my feelins are not dere anymre like last time.
ii keep tellin myself tat it's not w0rth to say break means break when we're tgt wif each other fer half yrs. ii cant bear to let him go bud ii've got no choices left. feelins are not dere & heart ish not dere t0o. ii really donoe wad's got into me & my mind. ii used to love him like hell. and cant live with0ut him.
th0ugh ii'm the one who said break, bud ii'm feelin ffreakin sad & crying like hell.
when ii woke up this m0rnin & 1st thing came to my mind was him.. its kindda cant bear to leave him. bud.. ii noe its my decision tat ii've made & friends ask me not to regret when ii've decided. ii think ii'll bbe fine when time passed..
his face, his v0ice, his sweet concern, his jokes. all this will bbe kept within me.
he's my best bf ii ever loved so much.
261106, a date tat would not slip off my mind.

do we always need to lose someone before we learn to treasure someone ?
0R
when our love ones are not by our side, tat's when we'll realise how impt they're now?

n0 mre turning back. ii'm moving on.

message to HIM:
s0rry to hurt euu when ii told euu ii'm leaving ur side. bud ii noe euu w0uld understands..
thnks fer the last 6 mths so much of ur concern & ur worries fer me. u're my best bf ii ever loved so much. all ii can say ish nth bud s0rry. to made euu shed tearrs fer me.
euu'll alwaes & ferever bbe in my heart. we'll still bbe friends. hope tat euu would bbe better fer all 0f ur tomorrows. pr0mise me really to take gd care of urself when ii'm not ard..
takeCare.
GoodBYE ♥ 2:20 am