♥ Saturday, April 19, 2008
(ps: .__." ii know its like a long compo, hack care this post people)
total shit. the feelin's really sucks.
ii guess ii've somehow hurt my sister - shuxian feelings.
ii have neglected her for soo darn long.
actions speaks louder than words yet how many thousands, millions & zillions upteen times ii told her that whenever ii'm free ii would mitup wif her. but NO.
and she had been waiting fer my calls & waiting fer me to mitup wif her since the day ii told her ii would mitup wif her when ii'm free.
yet ii did not. fuck the shit out of me. fuck it.
ii'm angry at myself. not being a gd friend.
ii have my school friends & outside friends(brothers & sisters)
but ii'm spending mostly of my time wif my sch friends than my sisters.
reason being? coz ii spent mostly of my time in sch from mon to fri wif my sch friends.
when it comes to weekends, ii'll spent my dae out on friday either shopping or slping at hm.
ii faced my sch friends every single dae till fri, sometimes even sat or sun.
so ii'll definitely have programmes on wif them & therefore,, ii've negelected my sisters.
our sisters meetin up ish gettin lesser & lesser this ii noe.
andd ii'm really trying my best to mitup wif euu.
euu said what sisters are fer ?
ii'll tell euu darling..
its not how often we saw & meeting up wif each other, its the love tat we had.
our sisterly love.
so what if we did not mitup until we're bored like how we used to bbe?
but do euu noe how much ii cared fer euu? how much ii wanted euu to bbe happy?
the up-dated life tat we'll update each other even if we did not mitup.
sisters are suppose to bbe dere fer each other when they need us, or a shoulder to lean on, a trusted person to listen to our says.
ii don care if euu like it or not, ii'm totally fustrated at how ur bf treated euu last time.
if ii'm not ur sister, ii won't bbe angry & who cares if ur bf treated euu tat way.
but ii noe its over.
jus one of ur call, one of ur msg asked me to go over shengkang & find euu if euu need me, ii tell euu ii will. even jus by sitting beside euu, without euu uttering a word ii'll do the same to go over ur place when euu need me darling.
when euu said " sisters? what are sisters fer?"
jus this sentence can hurt me mre den ii hurt euu.
it made me think tat ii'm not fit to bbe one of ur sisters.
but this won't drift us further, it will make me treasure euu mre :D
LOVES my zhuang shuxian!
afterall,, its my fault fer neglecting euu shuxian.
ii'm really at fault, am sorry fer neglecting euu.
prepare to pick up my calls after my MYE (:
BYE, back to self-study again.
GoodBYE ♥ 4:07 pm
